I have had ups and downs in my spiritual journey, often in the same day. but I had a though in church today about enduring the slump. where nothing is wrong,just not high. I think so many times we feel if we are not singing in the car high, then something is wrong. but boring is not wrong, it is the daily grind. I do think we can as a family have prayer and scriptures better. yet, I am not thinking about that so much as the repetitive busy work necessary of life. just working quietly getting to point a to point b isn't exciting, fun, or even. sinful.
Then later, I was watching Kelsey put a hair clip in her hair and getting frustrated and almost put my hand out to help her, but I waited. I wAtched her, I let her struggle. her hair bow was not important so much that if she didn't get it right she would be lost. in fact, as long as she was content with her results, it was fine with me.
I thought if she asked, then I would help, but the longer I thought about it the more I wondered if I should help her at all. was the struggle success or fail-was the important thing?
My mind wandered to the two issues that have made me crazy for the last few years, my weight and my house remodel. both are not where I want them to be, and I don't know why. I work on them both off and on. I don't make them a rigorous priority, but if fugu red that the level of work I have should pay off a little more. but maybe not. maybe, like Kelsey I need to struggle with the situation and my attitude and the effort I put for are the actual lesson to be learned, and not the end results of something perfect.
