Other people problems vs my own

I know a woman who struggles without her family close : she complains about every chance she gets on Facebook . After living so long in Texas with no family, it is hard to see what the big deal is.

Another woman is heavy and has health issues but doesn't seem to take care of herself. Our ward signs up to take her meals when it gets really bad, but she lives with two other adults and only has one kid. I wonder what those adults are doing. She is often seen out and about the same day someone signs up to take her meals. I have knelt in prayer begging for help to make sure our animals were taken care of in the dead of winter when my hubs was working an all nighter-no one answered the prayer . So I got out of the snow and dirt wiped my tears and had faith that The Lord would help me help myself.

We moved with no help- two women in our ward with family to help still needed and got help from our ward to move.

My bathroom, living room and yard are still ugly from partial remodel- I can't seem to pray Anything to happen. I am learning patience.

My point in all this is to wonder Again why some struggle alone and other problems seems to be fixed . My husband dropped 350 on a new phone and eventhoughhe has worked so hard and does deserveit hewill not find the time to finish any of my remodel that is left. I wonder what my part in all this should be and why I can't see the answer to do so. I am not bitter much any, more, just confused of how to proceed. To help myself without being so bitter at those who can't. Hence my calling compassionate service coordinator. The Lord really does have a sense of humor.

All you Jesus Freaks, get your cross out!

I see my self as the one who has had a hard cross to bear. As I age I see it as just being the first to carry a cross. Without saying any details, I had two someones call and ask me to swear to help them, but not tell. For the second time into years.
Iam grateful for my trials, my blessings, and my logic that has given me answers to give to others. one of them said that they would do two things over in life that would change everything.  I thought about that. Is there any choice I have mad tha 'twas so horrible that I would now change it? Well, maybe which first house we bought just because it should for more than our first house did. Other than that, I can't think of any bad choices thatiamnitcurrently getting blessed for anyway. God has been good like that in my life.

I am grateful for everything except my weight, my bathroom, and my living room-well and the neighbor-embarrassing landscaping. I texted mr. Darcy that I am grateful. And we are Ina good place- until he found out that I used an old meat saw as a branch cutter cause that is what I thought it was...
 We're still on for a date tonight and he has worked a month with no days off.

Good man.

Spring break

Started off likes bang. I went down in bed at 4 on Friday. I knew I had a stomach thing. I am strong so my two worried were that it would blaze thought the family and that Scott would get it. Luckily neither happened. Scott just got a cold sore. I however couldn't eat for 3days. My legs ached like I had run a marathon and sharp pains with fatigue. By Monday it old myself that some people just live with these types of things, so get up. I was shaky and dizzy, but not feverish. Weird. Cause then on Tuesday , poof! I was fine. Weird right.
 S the rest of the week we have been playing watching movies, going to the park, anything the kids would like to do. Not a fancy spring break like last year, but more enjoyable for this home body.

Rounding the corner into Spring

Can't wait until it gets warmer. I always have the hardest time with March. The electric bill from January is uglier than them all, it is cold, and the school kids arewindingdown.
Just a hard month.