Being Patient, Be Still, Be Prayerful-Listen

As I try to weather the stormy events of our house, I keep reminding myself of all the conference talks that applied to our situation. I have been reminded strongly that I am remembered by the Lord, that he loves us all, that he knows our situation, that we are here to be better than we could imagine and with the Lord all things are possible. It is so so hard to believe that I am worth it. To have hope when it seems impossible. To humble myself and open my mind to possibilities that I didn't want before.

I use to read quotes, quips with those words in them and they really didn't mean much to me. I wanted him to love me in the direction I wanted to go. I still want things to be easy- who doesn't- but I am having faith to walk the invisible "Indiana Jones" bridge before we get to the treasure. I don't like this direction. On my low days I think we will be stuck like this. Yet, quite whisperings of encouragement help me not notice how bad it is.

Someone came to talk to me about our situation, to check in. I felt ok and told her so. Really ok. Do I HATE that our house is in the situation it is-YES!!! with millions of exclamations. But as I talked to her, I decided that I am really just embarrassed at the way we are living right now. I am not worried, or scared or hopeless-most of the time. I believed the words of hope I was giving her about us.

When this all started I told myself I know I had the strength to stand this for another year. Later, I was talking to someone about their problems and answers. I decided that if this year and trial was enough to help my hubby and myself become closer to the Lord I would gladly sacrifice my home and all that I know to be safe  to bring him and me closer -individually and as a couple- to the Lord.
As we are walking through the trial now, I don't see how we are getting closer and I am worried that my thoughts are wrong- but maybe not. We don't see the good until we look back sometimes.

So I am dedicating this problem to my hubby's growth to be closer to the Lord, to my growth, and to an example of faith and trust to others. I am having patience to wait and see the miracles and blessings this will bring us. I will be still, be prayerful and listen.

I will be amazed at the impossible out come. I know this to be true in my heart, mind, and soul.

A slaughter, a massacre on a Friday in SJ

Got home finally at 10 last night after leaving the house at 7:30 that morning. The sophomore class had concessions for the slaughter of SJ/BR game last night. I quit looking at the score at half time. It was just sad. Who knew that you could be massacred without blood. Those poor boys tried so hard.
 It was a little slaughter in the concession stands too. It really makes me realize who will go the distance and who is there to work harder at not working.

I have a respect for one girl that is just amazing; she is a true Christian among Christians, a good student, and really has things going on. No matter what her life choices are, I can see her as a success in life. I have never see a kid work so hard. It puts new faith in teens back into me

Now if I could just find the same faith in co workers- ones who say they are too busy to help and then forget what they said; show up where you are and then try to hid from you in a crowd... Really stupid.